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Am I worth it?

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Published: Nov 1, 2009

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Literature Text

There is a hole
A hole in my chest
I patched it but it got bigger
The patch failed
As it grows
I feel like my life is hanging on a string.
The sides of my face hurt
From so many fake smiles
While my heart bleeds
From so much loneliness and pain
There are times when I wish I was dead
Being dead has no pain
But that is but a selfish escape
I feel alone in a crowd
Lonely in my own house
Hopeless when others speak of hope
Some see my sadness and try to mend it
When they don't know where the mending is needed.
My life is fading away
Trapped in my own life.
I pretend to be full of joy and happiness
When in truth I'm full lonesome sadness
I beg you to hold me close
To keep me next to your heart and show mw your love
To keep me safe
Make me feel like I'm worth my life in existence
But you can't
Its not that you don't want to
And I don't blame you
I'm just slowly fading away
And hope that when you finally get to do those things
I'm still here for you to share them with.
Because I love you
I may seem gloomy and sad
Filled with dark past
And maybe even a little angst
But I believe that if you finally get to me
I will be Ok again
Because without you
I'm not worth it